Somewhat zombified
Aug. 18th, 2018 06:24 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mtbcThis past week was a struggle for me to get through. I don't think I can blame jet lag: I normally recover within a day or two. At night I feel tired but not sleepy. Last night I was looking forward to starting the weekend by sleeping in but instead ended up largely awake by 6h with a sore back. I don't know why some nights it's sore and some it's not. Earlier this week I woke up with what felt like a very strained shoulder that still isn't quite right. At least my back quickly becomes fine if I get up and sit in a chair with my lumbar support cushion. I get through long-haul flights by jamming the provided blanket and pillow into the small of my back.
I have some computer to-do's that I could get done with the awake-time I am ending up with but few that I trust myself to attempt in this state. At work I catch myself doing things like going to the kitchen to fetch my infused tisane when my mug had already been sitting right beside me on my desk. My body feels as tired as my mind so I am hardly eager to do physical chores instead. Working out is taking considerable willpower.
I am also somewhat stressed by the rate at which to-do's accumulate. I don't seem to be catching many breaks there. A lot of the time I do put into domestic chores goes into ones that are unexpected one-off's that undesirably arose, like yesterday I did some mowing and found myself with another minor lawnmower maintenance task. If I can barely tread water then the actual progress I need to make is a distant prospect indeed.
Work is not too bad right now at least. I have been frustratingly unlucky regarding the effects of optimistic changes to hairy parts of the codebase but I am under rather lower pressure than some of my colleagues. Those supervising me appropriately understand that my success rate reflects what's reasonably achievable in the circumstances.
I have some computer to-do's that I could get done with the awake-time I am ending up with but few that I trust myself to attempt in this state. At work I catch myself doing things like going to the kitchen to fetch my infused tisane when my mug had already been sitting right beside me on my desk. My body feels as tired as my mind so I am hardly eager to do physical chores instead. Working out is taking considerable willpower.
I am also somewhat stressed by the rate at which to-do's accumulate. I don't seem to be catching many breaks there. A lot of the time I do put into domestic chores goes into ones that are unexpected one-off's that undesirably arose, like yesterday I did some mowing and found myself with another minor lawnmower maintenance task. If I can barely tread water then the actual progress I need to make is a distant prospect indeed.
Work is not too bad right now at least. I have been frustratingly unlucky regarding the effects of optimistic changes to hairy parts of the codebase but I am under rather lower pressure than some of my colleagues. Those supervising me appropriately understand that my success rate reflects what's reasonably achievable in the circumstances.
