Wearing down

[mtbc]

In recent weeks I have become more tired and unproductive: at times I am barely treading water. I did try starting a decent multivitamin in case that helped; at least that was an easy experiment. At work we just had our annual users' meeting and maybe that wiped me out even more: I slept for a long time after its last two days but did not feel correspondingly better for it. In the mornings usually I do not sleep in for long even if I can as I soon feel inclined to get up and do things. Similarly, if I am left alone later in the day then I rest for a while but then start to find things to do. However, in both cases that initial period when I choose to rest seems to have become rather longer than it was. Even before starting to rest more I was just about staying on top of routine chores but not making progress with any of the personal things I need to.

At least my paid work is fine: I have enough energy for that. I have also been trying to limit my television-watching: e.g., though I like science fiction I saw that Ascension (2014) appeared on Netflix and for now am deciding not to bother; also I am in two minds about Missions (2017) which has reached BBC Four but at least its episodes are short. Also on Netflix I am inclining against the second season of Fauda (2015) though I watched the first. So, I am at least avoiding comforting distractions. I am also not rushed off my feet. Yet again I feel as if I am lacking some insight into what is going on with me.