Increasingly restless

This journal has been quieter lately partly because I am experiencing a new bout of what might be some kind of depression. ( I do still feel as if my life has value to me )

but I am feeling less patient than usual with my current life. Quite simply, my family depend on me less. ( People grow up and move on. )

I find myself increasingly looking to the future. I have enough capital to ( set myself up comfortably in the US. )

I am not in any rush to change anything. Despite my discontentment now and how my personal tasks suffer I remain able to put my paid job first. My work ( is good though a bit tougher lately. )

I have requested a couple of weeks off later this winter because I have decided to take a relaxing holiday far away from everything familiar so I can try to step back and see clearly again. When I felt as if my family depended on me more I knew what I had to do and I simply did it. Now I feel as if I am gaining more freedom I am also finding that ( it is difficult to know how to use it. )