Mood failures
Mar. 1st, 2016 07:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mtbcLately I've felt a little sad and irritable, though not so much today. I've been waking with both headache and backache; I suppose I'll have to address the mattress issue at some point. Today I had the headache for much of the day.
I've felt short of time to do things I actually want to. Issues keep cropping up. For example, when I trimmed my hair this weekend the inside blade came clean out of the clippers. I have no idea why, given how much it now resists reinsertion, but now I have to try to get it back in properly and correctly tensioned. I felt a bit better last night after deciding not to get anything more done that day, also this morning after havingmst3kmoxie do the driving to the gym. Still, not doing things that I ought is probably a bad habit to develop. I think that I also have some background stress from our budget already being finely balanced and my net income probably being due to drop a few percent in coming months.
I'm not deeply depressed or anhedonic. I derived some brief amusement this morning when, in our two-people-wide lap swimming lane, a lady had difficulty circling instead of going back and forth, so we would stop at the end and watch her come at us along the lane we were ready to go down. Yesterday also had some funny moments when we were trying to coach a seminar speaker in setting up her Mac with the room's projector: in the end, once she picked the correct resolution on the correct screen and hit
I also need to remember to be grateful for what I do have and to get what pleasure I can out of the tasks that I perform regardless of if I chose them. My life may not be quite as I would choose but perhaps I can still try to enjoy it.
I've felt short of time to do things I actually want to. Issues keep cropping up. For example, when I trimmed my hair this weekend the inside blade came clean out of the clippers. I have no idea why, given how much it now resists reinsertion, but now I have to try to get it back in properly and correctly tensioned. I felt a bit better last night after deciding not to get anything more done that day, also this morning after having
mst3kmoxie do the driving to the gym. Still, not doing things that I ought is probably a bad habit to develop. I think that I also have some background stress from our budget already being finely balanced and my net income probably being due to drop a few percent in coming months.I'm not deeply depressed or anhedonic. I derived some brief amusement this morning when, in our two-people-wide lap swimming lane, a lady had difficulty circling instead of going back and forth, so we would stop at the end and watch her come at us along the lane we were ready to go down. Yesterday also had some funny moments when we were trying to coach a seminar speaker in setting up her Mac with the room's projector: in the end, once she picked the correct resolution on the correct screen and hit
confirmin time we gave her a round of applause.
I also need to remember to be grateful for what I do have and to get what pleasure I can out of the tasks that I perform regardless of if I chose them. My life may not be quite as I would choose but perhaps I can still try to enjoy it.
