mtbc: maze H (magenta-black)
Mark T. B. Carroll ([personal profile] mtbc) wrote2023-07-25 11:41 am

Difficulty staying on course

In recent times, I have not enjoyed an abundance of energy and willpower. Of course, all the house-moving and setup and whatnot has been quite the stressor. Still, all that is now mostly past. Things still go wrong with the flat, the latest is that next I must chase an installer harder about some bad wiring they did, and money remains tight while we pay off the flat setup. On the other hand, I have R. here with me, they are a great help in various ways, so it's just not me dealing with things as it was back in Tennessee.

Aside from my regular full-time work, I try to do something each day, whether a chore or some more leisurely expedition. For example, on Sunday we explored Pollok Country Park then sat a while in the sunshine, reading, and yesterday we shopped for groceries, and for items for high school next month. So, things do get done. But, quite often, I do no more than one per day: after that, I feel tired, ready to just rest, watch television, whatever before bed.

My eating is not going as I might hope. I make plenty of good decisions, just some bad ones too, the overall effect being insufficient discipline to stay on track. This is partly a money thing: in checking discount expires-soon shelving, it is difficult to pass up anything both tasty and cheap. However, it's mostly me just feeling tired and hungry and thinking, screw it, let's eat a nice thing.

I do think that I shall get there in the end but right now it feels like it will be a slow journey. The money situation will ease (though I wish the mortgage were on US interest rates) and we'll crawl ahead on our to-do's, as we settle they should arise with less frequency, but all this takes time.
thewayne: (Default)

[personal profile] thewayne 2023-07-25 03:05 pm (UTC)(link)
At least the Torries lost two of the three by-elections down south last week. We can hope the trend continues and they get banished to the hell they deserve for the next few decades. And it was quite the thumping!
mellowtigger: (take my money)

[personal profile] mellowtigger 2023-07-26 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
'it's mostly me just feeling tired and hungry and thinking, "screw it, let's eat a nice thing".' Yes, exactly that. I have to deliberately stop myself while shopping. If I buy it, I will eat it.