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Old worries threatening a return
Sometimes situations worry or annoy me, especially if they remain unresolved. Previously I had found that mindfulness techniques could bring me some welcome perspective and help me to manage these emotions.
I have mentioned having undergone a breakdown many years ago. One legacy of my slow recovery from that has been an additional way of coping with things: an ability to accept possible outcomes that I might once have considered unthinkably dreadful. Before I learned to handle those fears, I greatly wished for some kind of pill I could take that would have me continue to bother with my work, chores, etc. while greatly reducing the degree to which I could be vexed by anything.
Lately I have noticed myself falling back into an old pattern of fretting about things that may not turn out well. It may partly be that I am becoming attached to our current life in Perthshire as a way to keep our children in the same high school until they graduate.
I can still easily recapture the mode of thinking that relieves my concern over what may come but I find that it is decreasingly my default approach. I do not want a return to suffering distracting worry so I will put effort into positively cultivating my ability to cope because it has been a great help and I would like return to a default of not much caring what happens. I would like my concerns to rarely come to mind at all.
I have mentioned having undergone a breakdown many years ago. One legacy of my slow recovery from that has been an additional way of coping with things: an ability to accept possible outcomes that I might once have considered unthinkably dreadful. Before I learned to handle those fears, I greatly wished for some kind of pill I could take that would have me continue to bother with my work, chores, etc. while greatly reducing the degree to which I could be vexed by anything.
Lately I have noticed myself falling back into an old pattern of fretting about things that may not turn out well. It may partly be that I am becoming attached to our current life in Perthshire as a way to keep our children in the same high school until they graduate.
I can still easily recapture the mode of thinking that relieves my concern over what may come but I find that it is decreasingly my default approach. I do not want a return to suffering distracting worry so I will put effort into positively cultivating my ability to cope because it has been a great help and I would like return to a default of not much caring what happens. I would like my concerns to rarely come to mind at all.