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Mark T. B. Carroll ([personal profile] mtbc) wrote2017-11-15 08:45 pm

Flagging lately

Some of my willpower appears to have gone away somewhere. I can do my paid work, write some journal entries here, help out with simple household chores, keep my clothes washed and hung up, but not a lot more. For example, I have worked out only once this month: while after my day's work and evening commute the cold, dark garage is uninviting, that didn't stop me last year. Indeed, only tonight did I get around to running the backups I normally would have last weekend.

I have purposely tried not being hard on myself, taking things easily and seeing if that allows me to recuperate, regaining some inclination to do things. But, no. I have to step back and understand better what is going on. I need a bit more willpower, enough to tip me over the edge into making progress with my personal computing projects which I do enjoy once I am into them. As things are I can barely be bothered: given a choice I am postponing tasks and instead hoping that there is something good on television.